blog #7

I thnik one of the most impactful statements from this chapter was Restler highlighting how NCLB required states to track metrics like graduation ratea and standardized test scores disaggregated by race, class, language and disability status. She also went on to quote Leornardo (2007) who notes, "NCLB gives whiteness the license to declare students of color failures under a presumed-to-be-fair system." This reminds me of when I first moved to the US and started college. I noticed a pattern in all my psychology classes. Most studies compared white people to people of color and every single time these studies go out of their way to belittle people of color and paint an image superiority of white people over black and brown people. The studies usually go as follow: "black people are less likely to graduate than white people...," "white people are more likely to score high on the SATs...," "black people are more likely to drop out....," etc. These studies truly did dentured my self-esteem for a while. I have always been an A student, high self-efficacy, brilliant, smart, granted sometimes I lack common sense. But what I am tying to say is that I am book smart. But when I was exposed to these papers, even though I am not African American I still internalized some of these studies. I started to feel inferior to my white classmates. I also hated when we had to discuss these studies being the only black person in the class because I can feel every other white students' eyes piercing through my body, as if they were just given a "license" to declare me "a failure."

These are thing I do that cannot be measured. -I'm a bit of an overthinker. Just thinkig about life, love, future, heaven and hell, job, birth, religion. I just overthink. -I write a lot, not like jorunaling, I just write things when they come to mind in the form of peoms. I fidn that I can articulate things better when I write them. So yeah, I write.